My Mind is Goin Through Them Changes
It never stops, no matter what cult you’ve been in, or how old you get. This is what Buddy Miles had to say about it a few decades ago. We are not rational animals, no … Read more
Alanzo’s Bio
Re-Evaluating My Wins In Scientology
The other day, more than 14 years after leaving Scientology, I realized that one of the biggest wins I had in Scientology might not have been as valuable as I’ve been thinking it was. In … Read more
The Truth of Our Existence Can Not Be Understood Through Language
What if the title of this post is true? It would mean that all this time spent studying bibles and sutras, and pouring over sermons, would only cage us inside self-referential language. What if there … Read more
Post Traumatic Growth: How to Heal After Scientology
There is a change about 3 minutes in to the video that reveals just how profound it really is. Post Traumatic Growth is what it’s all about. Isn’t it?
Don’t Let Your Struggle….
It can sometimes happen to an Ex-Scientologist that they feel responsible for the abuses that Scientology perpetuates on others, even though they themselves had no part in those abuses, and could not stop them even … Read more
Recovery From Scientology: What is That, Exactly?
I hear people talking about recovering from Scientology. What does that mean? Is there an “End Phenomenon” to that? I have definitely changed quite a bit since getting out of Scn 13 years ago. At … Read more
Undercover as an OSA Agent, Part 2
After unpacking my bags in my room, I sat down at the little round table next to the window and looked out onto the parking lot. People were streaming in to the front doors of … Read more
Undercover as an OSA Agent, Part 3
Intelligence work has greatly benefited from the emergence of cell phones. But this was 1987, and cell phones were called “car phones” then, and they were enormous bricks that were connected to the dashboard of … Read more
Undercover as an OSA Agent, Part 4
The bar was packed. My beer was gone and someone was sitting on my stool. Yellow Badges were everywhere. I walked up to a space next to the busy waitress station and ordered another beer. … Read more